Friday, May 1, 2009

the story of marry and ilo

I’m not one to complain...

...unless I’ve been given a reason. For instance, when situations arise where I or someone I consider to be my friend becomes the recipient of someone else’s lack of thought or the target of some asshole’s disrespect. Most likely and most commonly (and in this particular case), circumstances occur where I find myself unable to squelch, even when the issues originate only as a result of crass, unrefined, and witless absence of knowledge. Not to say that I’m unaware that far too many people (or men, in this example) still base their social status on penis size and deny their own insecurities by shamelessly overcompensating with mockery and rudeness toward others; however, on occasion, the vilification of others puts me over the edge, especially when I did nothing to provoke it, and frankly, I don’t deserve it.

How does that all lead to Gavin Degraw? Well, it doesn’t – directly. I have had the pleasure of meeting Gavin on a couple of occasions, none of which have exceeded a 39 second frame of time, most recently, on April 24th in Boston, Massachusetts. He shook my hand, he looked me in the eye while he waited for me to introduce myself, and then when I asked him to sign one of the three pictures that I had taken at the beginning of that week at a New Hampshire show, he graciously obliged and signed all of them, actually stopping to LOOK at them before he did so. Fact of the matter is, his actions within those 39 seconds appeared to be sincere – and if they weren’t, he’s a good faker. That DOES matter too, in the end, especially to those who assess character well (I consider myself to fall into the latter category of ‘assessor’).

Now that we have that out of the way...

I rolled my eyes and laughed at myself a little the first time I made a payment to become a member of the Gavin Degraw fan club. I’m 34 years old, and it’s not like Queen, Van Morrison, and the endless list of other (dead or over 50) classic rock artists that I admire and respect advertise their fan clubs on a regular basis with the promise of first access to show tickets upon receipt of your payment. When I went to Ticketmaster to get tickets for a show at Paradise Lounge a couple years back, I instantly became a sucker for just that...first access to tickets. Ok, so I don’t like others to get ahead of me – and I don’t like to scan the friggin’ continent for tickets to any show, but especially for a performer that holds such merit with me personally on all levels of talent, voice, piano, and writing. To me personally, Gavin has become someone who possesses those characteristics on a musical and professional level. As much as I like to pretend that I’m still 12 on most days, I was taught throughout my life to appreciate and recognize good music (thank God for my parents rocking out).

Once I paid my $40 and saw Gavin live, it was like my first needle of heroin (assumed comparison, no I don’t shoot up drugs). I couldn’t wait to hear the voice again, and my respect for him as an artist grew. Thankfully, more albums followed after that show and with it, more performances. And with my fancy little fan club membership, I always got tickets that I attempted to get. I took advantage of my membership and actually visited the website to make sure I didn’t miss any shows in my area. I even scanned a section that said I was going to get a little “members only” care package...awww...that’s fun! Tote bag and t-shirt or poster or something of the sort... I don’t even remember – why? Um...

...never got it. I do recall seeing some surveys where you could VOTE for the things that would be included. Needless to say, I left the voting up to the other members, but actually, the items in the final decision never made it to me. I didn’t really care, as I didn’t become a member to get a tote bag, but I always DID wonder why it never came...i like bags...jeans and t-shirts comprise most of my wardrobe, so I thought that would be fun to be able to wear a shirt with my boyfriend on it.

Huh?

Oh, right. I forgot to mention that I tell most people that I cross paths with the Gavin is my boyfriend, so I figured I should at least have a t-shirt if I wanted to really try and convince anyone...but the boyfriend thing...although extremely fun, especially when people believe me, is quite removed from the point – but I’m good at it, so I felt it should be included.

Onward...

The year 2009 rolled around with another album and another tour. I was excited like the 12 year old that I am at heart...although the fan club had since been taken over by a new management, I renewed my membership again to keep my ticket perks. Gavin’s fame was rising and even slightly mainstream, which I guess is probably the GOAL of a musician, but I had previously enjoyed being surrounded by loyalty at shows, and now found myself surrounded with more of the “average age 17, skirt too short, going to get on him after the show” crowd or the “Eileen/stalker type” who told my girlfriend one night that she was really tight with Gavin’s family and that she had really done a lot for them...

Um,...wait a minute, sister. I don’t think so...

Turns out, my fan club membership also gets me the ability to order and pay for the latest album in advance, before the general public, and I even get to download one of the songs immediately, before the release of the album...call me a sucker but sure, I’ll bite. I buy the digital album AND the actual CD, which I was assuming I’d actually receive ON the release date (if not, within a day or two). I knew I’d at the very least, be able to download the digital version, which is the easy way out, but why the hell not? I love easy. Release day rolls around, I download, I’m happy, I’m singing, I’m anticipating the music as it is going to sound live...love it.

That was what...March something? Yeah, I actually decided to find my email receipt and look UP where the hell the hard copy is the other day and amazingly, it’s status was listed as “leaving the warehouse.” Wow, that’s a serious exit...shocking. I wonder if it’s leaving the warehouse in a tote bag with the t-shirt on...or was it a poster...

Just before the New Hampshire show on April 19th of this year, I got an email stating that along with eight other people, I had won the Meet and Greet contest...

Oh yeah, I submitted an email. I have no fear. I actually think I submitted the email for a press pass so that I could take pictures, but either way, I was so excited! And naturally, I had exceeded the 50 word limit (who can stay within that proximity?), so I had to redo it (damn!). I’d read other people’s stories at some point about how they had attended sound checks before the show and hung out, asked questions, etc. I download a lot of video online of Gavin playing and singing (during those meet and greet sound checks), some of which were really clear recordings, and the live sound of the music just can’t be beat...sounded awesome. The anticipation of my own meet and greet experience, although overwhelming, was so exciting, I could barely even comprehend that it would happen...

...good friggin’ thing...

I was really like, “screw the fan club tote bag, screw the hard copy of the CD, I’m going to get to pick his brain a little, actually SEE and/or photograph his fingers on the ivory (WOAH), perhaps even HEAR his voice without having to drown out the kids next to me talking about the cute boys on the other side of the stage (go home).” That just KICKS ASS. And, as an added bonus, I had already had plans to meet one of my girls from college that I hadn’t seen, but had stayed in touch with for 11 years (that’s a LONG time). She is probably the only other person that I truly cherish with a REAL appreciation for music like the appreciation that contributes so much to who I am as a person. She ALSO happens to be educated, intelligent, and SO FUN! The irony and the coincidences were seemingly to complimenting each other perfectly as they fell into place...

Since the beginning of my time on Facebook, I’ve always said that Gavin was my boyfriend. Some days my status says things like, “Hangin’ out with Gav while he’s on break from touring...catching up on the road stories...”

Not because he is my boyfriend (I’m not delusional), not because I stalk him, not because I even want him to be (um, but really, who doesn’t?).

HowEVER, because I’ve already travelled the path of ‘real life,’ love-encompassing characteristics and the associated drama, at this point in my life, I find it MUCH more entertaining to not only HAVE an imaginary boyfriend, but to screw with all of the people who aren’t actually SURE if I’m lying...

Some of my girlfriends actually play along, which is naturally, quite entertaining when it catches someone else off guard. Yeah, yeah, I always come clean and yeah, yeah, I DO have better things to do, but if I did all the things I was really supposed to be doing, why would life be fun?

There IS, of course, a point to that story, as it is important to note that because Gavin and I have already been “going steady” for 6 or 7 years, you can imagine the shit my “concert pal” and I were coming up with for our Meet and Greet...

And of course, all the fun would occur after we got ‘attention competition’ (the eight other people) out of the way by hanging the sign labeled “Meet and Greet Winners THIS WAY” with an arrow pointing to our imaginary location of the hour...we had at least 10 different places, and every time we conjured up a new one, we thought we’d outdone the last...

-the swinging door room with automatic lock behind you (but that’s mean so there’d be a monitor so they could watch the show while they were in there)

-the building next door with a room that had one of those doors with the little square window in the center of the top half, which we’d cover with a picture of Gavin waving (and that was just the beginning – I can’t reveal the rest or I’d have to kill you – we might need them again someday)

Oh how we just laughed and laughed...(sigh) it’s great to be immature...

The stories continued as the days passed, and by the time I went to the New Hampshire show, I was PSYCHED to see it again in Boston even though I’d stood behind a HUGE front row of “cock blockers” (um...the Eileen stalker girl), I got great photographs, and at the end of the day, all that really matters in the MUSIC. The sound was just as I had remembered- hair raising, leaving me bewildered and filled with respect and admiration all over again...that voice...

April 24th - Boston

We didn’t want to be crazed, and we didn’t want to appear stalker-like in fashion, and we didn’t want to ask redundant questions...but we wanted to be and have FUN. And of course, we were already riding on the preconceived notion that we were funny (which we are), we just weren’t sure if our ‘Gavin ideas’ would be deemed appropriate. OH, what fun we had anticipating the events...

I was even ready to have a full fledged Regis and Kelly bashing fest due to the fact that I unFORtunately had the experience of overhearing a show one day on the TV. The only good thing that came from it was that Gavin happened to be performing that day and after he sang, Regis kept calling him KEVIN (?!?) and as Gavin was explaining that his NYC bar was opened with the intent to benefit and promote rising artists, Kelly says something like, “Yeah, but more importantly, what’s the best drink you serve there?...”

HO-

LEE

SHIT

That did not just happen.

I sat there, jaw dropped, frozen, offended, repulsed, dry heaving (not really dry heaving, but it fits)... did she just say that? Gavin is talking about something that matters, obviously to him, AND he’s being called Kevin, and then he gets THAT for a question?

I HATE FAKERS. If you don’t have a clue, just reFRAIN from talking...do us all a favor.

Just confirms my long list of reasons for keeping life simple...

For a moment I tried to imagine what it would have felt like at that moment to be Gavin... More importantly, what’s your best DRINK?!

There is a method to my madness...

So after a GORGEOUS sunny day of pounding the pavement in Boston, I actually CARED what jeans and t-shirt I chose for the first time in like...10 years, even though I really didn’t care, and I had my pictures, my camera, my Meet and Greet email. The short jaunt that we’d intended on had turned into like 5 hours of walking and laughing as we conjured up scenario after scenario of our experience to come...

Get to Paradise, get the green circles, go inside, look at my phone 33 times until it’s time to congregate in designated area, go there,... congregate. PERFECT time for observation, assessment, people watching, and eavesdropping on the nights buzz...I leaned up against the lighted Miller Lite (ew) sign for the next 45 minutes or so...

Thankfully, my partner in crime kept me sane, and as always, entirely entertained as we approached “sheep status.” We looked around, evaluated who was packing the other eight passes, who was hugging the guys with the laminated cards hanging around their necks, who had walkie talkies, who was getting yelled at, who was already bombed and trying to find the bathroom (and of those, who wobbled, who was really a man, and who walked into the wall en route – there were 3 wall hitters during our watch, just in case you were curious- SO funny). Time seemed to be getting closer and closer to...

NONE...

We saw one couple go in ahead of us with a “laminated card guy” as we “green circles” got the “yeah, yeah, they can go next.” And the young couple was lead down the hallway. They had already been asked, “so what’d you guys think of this afternoon?” which we determined to be some private performance or sound check that we’d imagined that WE should have attended,...especially when she said “it was AWEsome...” in a “Gavin rocked” kind or way, and then “laminated card guy” discussed with them how long he’d been working with Gavin...

But as jealous as we were at the story that we’d made up in our heads, we’d also determined that “laminated card guy” (that one ONLY) was nice and we “liked” him and he sounded as if he enjoyed his job and respected Gavin, etc, and they seemed like a nice couple, so we rose above shallow for a moment...

Then we saw three girls pass in front of us, straight from 90210, who then got hugs and love from a “laminated guy,” went down the hallway, and came back out shortly after, giggling and ooh ahh-ing as they admired themselves on the 2-inch digital camera preview screen...where are THEIR green circles?

So out comes “bearded dude with laminated badge” and does like a “all of you come on” motion with his hand to the ten of us. We proceed down the dark, 3 foot wide hallway, through the squeaky rear door on the right across from the ‘boy’s room,’ and through one more room with ferocious fluorescent lights compared to the blackness of the rest of the entire establishment, and eventually, we get ‘the hand.’ You know, the “stop here and wait your turn, arm out, palm pointed toward your chest,” like the red and white bar that comes down in front of your car at the tracks when the train is coming...

Two in, two out.

18 seconds.

Two in, two out.

mmm...maybe 25 seconds.

We get the “come on” motion and enter into what I can only define as “the holding tank-” and there he is...the man behind the piano. I’d actually been this close to him on other occasions, but with the atmosphere of the holding tank and the ‘herded sheep’ treatment, it seemed weird, and as we were on the brink of entering, I whispered to my girlfriend that I felt like we were going back to the room where your money pays for more than a lap dance...

I could smell only the leather of Gavin’s black leather jacket as he stood almost directly in the center of the six to eight foot wide room (which if we average to seven, would put him within centimeters of 3.5ft on either side). His skin was flawless, and of COURSE, my girlfriend introduced herself as ILO (EYE-LOW), which was one of the names we were going to have Gavin make one of me pictures out to (when he signed) in our imaginary scenario (yeah, we KNOW no one does the whole “who should I make it out to?” anymore, but we were PLAYing):

“First name ILO, last name VEE YU...” (sigh) the fun we had was really all that’s important...

I was “MARY with 2 Rs...”

“...and then you can just write my last initials: M. E.”

And yes, as I was just typing that, I totally cracked up again, not necessarily because I think you (collective) will find it humorous, but really because I don’t care...again, all that matters is that it made us laugh so hard, we were bent over on the streets of Boston, holding our waists, laughing our asses off...

So anyhow, she says her name is ILO as she shakes Gavin’s hand, which of COURSE he asks her to repeat because who the hell’s name is ILO, but he was so sincere, and of COURSE I’m pissing my pants and can barely say my own REAL name through laughing, shaking my head, and muttering “I can’t, I can’t” (I think out loud, actually), trying not to puke, and holding onto my pictures...

I manage to get my name out and make eye contact, which Gavin is very sincerely doing, and I can already tell, with bearded guy leaning back and cocking his head to check if the line had grown during the first 4 seconds of our visit, that due to my laughing at “ILO,” and the extra second it had taken to get my name out, I’d already pushed the clock. So I gain composure and I manage to find the balls to ask Gavin if he will sign a picture for me. He says yes, amazingly and without delay, pulls out his own Sharpie (out of nowhere), and helps me whip out my pictures, which I tell him I took the prior Monday night. I can’t help but point out that in the second one, he’s looking right at me (he totally was). I DID actually see him LOOK at them, which as I also said earlier, he was either genuinely looking, or really good at faking it, and he signed them all (thank you, Gavin). I heard “bearded dude with laminated badge” say “Woah, you took those?” behind me, which made me feel a midge more like Gavin was actually SEEING them (the difference to a musician, I would guess, between HEARING and LISTENING) since being a photographer really defines me, and my pictures WERE pretty good (they were awesome *smirks with pride*) and all of this is happening as ILO decides to point out with COMPLETE MERIT that upon exit, we are now going to be the last people to enter the venue and she is probably one of the shortest people there...

Bearded dude with laminate badge gives her some type of questioned response initially, inquiring as to whether he wants GAVIN to deal with her complaint or HIM to...

Being the scholar that the is and given the top level of wit that she holds title to with ease, she makes a comment that includes “cock block that” as she nods her head in my direction while Gavin signs my photos (hehe – crazy girl) and bearded dude with laminate badge decides that ILO has eyes for HIM – so he responds with, “Yeah, I’ll hook you up, just wait back by merchandise.”

And like the sheep that we were, our 39 seconds was UP, and we were herded out of Gavin’s holding cell and back out into the general population. I’m pretty sure there was a picture in there too...it’s all such a friggin blur...

And once again, I’m leaning on the Miller Lite sign by merchandise.

It was over.

The Meet and Greet.

Over.

No questions, no bonding, no “Can I just sit right here on your lap?,” no “ILO and MARRY’s list of questions that no one has ever asked Gavin before,” no pictures of his hands on the ivory, no acapello voice that makes goose bumps on my face, no talk about how he needs to leave Ilo and Marry in charge of merchandise because the t-shirts need new designs (by us, or course) and even though the Free T-shirts are pretty cool with Gavin playing the piano, the placement is all wrong and those who find it necessary to tuck their t-shirts IN (I know, but people DO that) are going to tuck Gavin in, which is therefore, an automatic decrease in sales...no Facebook boyfriend stories, no Regis and Kelly bashing, not even a statement of respect and admiration for who he is as an artist, writer, musician...

And as I sit there in shock, once again, leaning on the damn beer sign, thinking about how I was just a sheep, herded amongst the crowd of other sheep into what I could only think of as an obligatory holding cell in which Gavin is contracted and INDENTURED to stand and shake hands and smile, I notice the sign...

SPEND $30 in Merchandise and meet Gavin after the show!

I shrunk. I was a shrunken sheep and the herd instantly multiplied exponentially.

WTF!

That sucked. I was just disappointed. Not in Gavin, not in the performance that I hadn’t seen yet, not in the music. But it still sucked.

THEN in walks “super tall black guy with striking blue eyes” and he makes his way over to the merchandise area and (I’m still leaning on the lighted Miller Lite) consults with the guy at the table who is on his Apple laptop...

“Yeah, we’re here for the meet and greet?”

Guy with walkie talkie, “Meet and greets are done with, over with, finished.” He looks at super tall black guy with striking blue eyes, “Sorry, you just missed it, it’s done.”

Super tall black guy with striking blue eyes says, “Yeah, we’re friends. Can you tell him... Blake? We’re friends with Gavin.”

Soon after guy with walkie talkie goes down the hallway, confirms the “name drop,” comes back up the hallway, and before you know it, I’m looking at the back of super tall black guy with striking blue eyes as he and his two pals are headed toward the holding cell.

...and they’re gone for WAY longer than 39 seconds...

I feel compelled to approach bearded dude with laminated badge and ask why super tall black guy with striking blue eyes gets the love now and we got 39 seconds...just curious, and maybe a little “gutsy” with residual disappointment.

Bearded dude looks down at me like the sheep that I was and says, as if I’m a complete idiot, “Um, his brother’s a famous tennis player! Duh!”

Well, excuse me, DICKHEAD, I didn’t realize that a racket and a ball in the family also came with “music appreciation.” Nor did I realize that I was the piece of shit you just talked to me like...

Bearded dude’s response prompted ILO to sarcastically say something ‘to the tune of’ (no pun intended) “well you’re doing a really great job” as a comeback to Bearded’s next wisecrack, which THEN lead to the hit of the night:

Not only did Bearded give us the finger, he then squealed a little “Fuck you!! You can forget THOSE SEATS, bitch.”

I’m sorry, WHAT THE F DID HE JUST SAY?!

So here I stand, shrinking and falling deeper and deeper into a RAGE, drowning in the disappointment of what was supposed to be a night with one of my most respected musicians EVER, and here I was, leaning on the FUCKING lighted beer sign...

ILO is fuming in the awe of receiving such blatant disrespect from someone who is OBVIOUSLY just jaded by the girls who don’t give him the attention that he so desperately wants on a level that is at least comparable to Gavin’s attention, and thinks it’s appropriate to lash out with rude and crass bullshit when he loses his chances of getting it.

Way to REP-RE-SENT the musician – prick.

I will say, that as I continued to lean up against the beer sign, starting to realize that yes, ILO was right, we ARE going to enter the performance lounge as the winners of a 39 second Meet and Greet, in the ABSOLUTE BACK, when realistically, we could’ve just stayed in there from the beginning, had the same experience AND good seats if we’d purchased a t-shirt (ALL of which were shoddy at best in design except for the ONE shirt that has only Gavin’s name and is charcoal-ish gray in color that I actually bought on Monday in New Hampshire), (! Phew! Out of breath – exhale – and big INhale again for the second half and main idea of the initial sentence...:) I have a special little moment of my own as I stood there, STILL leaning on the STUPID LIGHTED BEER SIGN when Gavin suddenly and abruptly LANDS dead center in the middle of the hallway, which is exactly parallel to my ‘beer sign perch.’ He just kind of LANDED there, as the squeaky rear door to the room with the super overpowering fluorescent lights closed a LOT faster than what he expected (I’m guessing, but it sounds good) and kind of PUSHED him out the door and BAM! – there he stood, totally exposed, looking like he’d just been caught standing there naked or maybe just surprised that the door had just ejected him into the hallway so harshly...

He looked at me.

I looked at him.

He looked left.

He looked right.

He looked at me.

He looked confused.

So what do I do?

Well, I didn’t scream down the hallway, “I’m a SHEEEEP!”

And as unfortunate as it is, we didn’t all of a sudden PERISH every other externality that exists in the world (cue music), drop everything, and ‘slow mo’ start running toward one another with hair blowing behind, and then just as we (didn’t) approached one another, I didn’t jump into his arms, and we didn’t have this amazingly long and passionate embrace...shit.

And by the way (**sound of needle scratching across record as entire, sappy scenario is interrupted and rewound back to the ‘cue music’ point...,**) it SO would’ve instead been the two of us running down the hallway, me pushing over drunk and unstable girls left and right, who were trying to find the bathroom, and then screaming, “CAAAATCH MEEEE!” as I jumped into the air and gave Gavin the full body wrap with arms around the neck and legs around the waist (duh) and then...

But oh yeah, none of that shit happened either way...

Cuz I’m a sheep, actually.

So I lifted my non picture-holding hand and as we stood there looking at each other for that brief moment, I used my index finger like the little kid does in The Shining (Danny), and I pointed, pointed, pointed...

...To the bathroom.

I guess I instinctively assumed he had to pee...why the hell else would he come out of the holding cell...which, after I bashed my head off the beer sign a couple times, realized that the stairs lead (I think) to the area where cool people who have been freed from the holding cell hang out...because I never saw him again until he came out on the stage...

****ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! (that’s the sound of tires squealing as I slam on the brakes and realize that 5 seconds just passed and I was just Danny from The Shining and I’m a sheep and some asshole just gave me the FINGER!)****

And I just got a FUCK YOU, BITCH! - to wrap up my contest win!

CONGRATS! (applause)

I will say, on top of it all, that although I will keep going back for the drug of the voice, GAVIN, and the music will always be something I respect and love and continue to be dedicated to, it’s not actually because I want to get in your pants (wait, aren’t guys supposed to say that? – reverse it) or because you’re my Facebook boyfriend (ok, fine, those both compile 2% of my motive).

AT THE END OF THE DAY, IT REALLY IS ALL ABOUT THE MUSIC.

Music and photos make up my core, my soul...you are part of that music. So at the sheepiest (made that word up) attempt to tell you that within the sea of girls (and a large amount of gay guys, too) that attend the show or want to meet you so they can say they did you (that was one of our questions,...(and I can’t say I haven’t wondered if you’re good in the sack – ah! Couldn’t squelch)) there are dedicated souls out there too, that admire and respect your talents.

So many people have asked me “what are you going to do with the pictures?”

I’m going to appreciate them.

Thank you, Gavin, for your time. I know that you had NOTHING to do directly with any of the things that I bitched about. For you, Marry and Ilo have nothing but love...and we’re still singing and dancing and echoing to “CUPID...”

Our imaginary stories have now been upgraded to: Marry and Ilo –Degraw documentary photographer and merchandise operator and “chicks with laminated badges that show RESPECT.” We’ve decided we’re better off with the fun we created. Keeps things real. Exciting. Simple. FUN. That’s why we’re here...

I can’t help but wonder what it’s like to be Gavin Degraw. I would’ve enjoyed the chance to pick at you (him) at least a little bit...and I have always wondered if life is lonely, if you have less control with more fame, if YOU ever feel like the sheep, if you HAVE the love you sing about, what you imagine your life to be like in the future, if you had the voice as a child when you were learning to play...the list really does go on forever...but I’ve settled on wonderment. The wonderment and mystery is always an added bonus upon leaving a live show...in awe. I truly leave in awe...

The point of my novella is not to disrespect the musician. And I could really give a shit about the material things...although I don’t necessarily believe that it’s ok to take someone else’s money and not deliver, no matter WHAT it is. It IS to voice the disappointment of the experience toward whoever is in charge of the absence of delivery, the falsities, and to let Bearded guy know that disrespect will get you nowhere. And I believe that:

“...behind every BEAUTIFUL girl, there is a DUMBASS boy who did her WRONG and made her STRONG!” (-unkown)

Therefore, Bearded, thank you for contributing to my STRENGTHS with your weaknesses.

LESSONS LEARNED and LESSONS attempted to TEACH:

If you have a contest (and go as far as to make me do my entry over because I exceeded 50 words) and you are just going to give away the same thing to any random ticket holder at the venue, at least tell the contest winners what they should be expecting. And if I had to write 50 words, they should at least have to buy $50 worth of merchandise.

If you win a contest, don’t set expectations based on the experiences of others past because consistency doesn’t exist.

If Gavin doesn’t want to experience the Meet and Greet that people like me would’ve wanted, then don’t run the contest. It’s that simple. He’s the artist. And you’re misrepresenting. Not fair. Just offer everyone a hand shake and a picture for buying a t-shirt. That would’ve saved me a lot of griping. I can’t really be convinced that he’s that interested in the concept (without the obligation) if he barely exchanges words with the people. And people expect (and deserve) consistency, don’t you think? If you aren’t going to be consistent, say it. It’s that simple. Just say it.

Don’t screw with people’s love of music.

Don’t disrespect other people because Karma lives and bad Karma sucks and what goes around does comes around (YEAH! Bearded guy...).

If you have a small penis, you should try overcompensating with good lovin’...there’s a way around all things if you are willing to learn...(which means we all now know that you suck in bed too, Bearded...aw, too bad, so sad...)

Music (and pictures, for me) moves the soul...no one can ever take that away.

Merchandise needs a makeover. I’m game...

When you sell something, you should actually deliver the item purchased. Again, I don’t care about the money anymore...it certainly doesn’t grow on trees around here and I actually work hard for it, but to whoever is in charge of the transactions: donate it. I’m over it.

Self-reliance is the only road to true freedom, and being one's own person is its ultimate reward. -Patricia Sampson

GAVIN DEGRAW, his voice, his artistry, his fingers pounding the piano, his SWAGGER, his MUSIC – ROCKS MY WORLD.

I have tons of amazing photos from the two shows...if I even have the opportunity for another 39 seconds, I’ll be sure and bring some. I won’t hold my breath...

And I think from now on, I’ll probably just take my chances on the wind and stay where I belong...away from the crowd, eyes closed, a little space to get my groove on (or I believe, my “swagger”), just me, the piano, the sound, and the voice...

I’M DONE.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME.

Sincerely,

MARRY with 2 Rs